By the time you hear this message, I'll be gone
Forced to this conclusion by the hands of time and a voice that whispers "No other choice"
Sound of distant gunfire on a blue horizon
RISING SLOW DRIP SEX PULSING CHAOS THROUGH DISCORDANT VEINS
Yes, I have passed away, passed on, passed freely through those pearly gates
I was somehow taken by hand, unawares, and led to this fork in the road
Now I have arrived at a conjunctureof parallel madness, a narrow path divided by millions of fragmented lives
lived as one. So you do not believe in love, yet it is love that has destroyed me
I lay my body down , spent shell as proof
place my coffin next to yours as if to say- "This is what I've always longed for"
It's been many years in calling , and by calling out the names, who did I wish to hear from ?
Thos who have stroked me? Fucked me ? Disregard me - John or is it Judas ?
stuck like a knife in flesh resilient and now they do not distract me
And one more thing before i go- I go without regret
Forget tomorrow's awakening, today has found its end
A moment of silence please, for those dead or dying
The world around us stands still briefly, then BANG BANG!!
Shattered and back to the next routine
Up ahead on that hot, dusty road, take a look around you
Have you walked this road before ? Buried loved ones here ? (All are loved ones here)
Well of all places, I was the last I had expected to find you crawling on
I held out my hand and it was not taken by the others, but instead, kissed wetly
Left behind dripping venom and blue lust all mixed with blood
I've been told you make an incision , and suck the poison out
Some of us, as you well know, dear brother, long for such childish pleasures
Driven by some wild, inner beast, I mount my childhood steed
I race off, crazy, towards the pale horizon
A fiery haven that makes my body quake
In my doing so, I leave behind another wounded soldier in the dust, another mangled junk heap just like me
And pushing onwards, pressing forward - suspicion rears its ugly head
I suspect that in every manner, we have met somewhere before
That in our various travels, we have passed each other several times
That you have, in many instances , haunted me
Strode with me to the landscape of multiple shadows which marks our place amongst the dead
Yes there is a blinding image of you, doubled over, placed before me
In your eyes I detect the same savage fears that I have battled with all my life, that I still struggle fiercley to escape
Yet escape I fail to do, and picking myself up off the floor, I admonish you never again to fall
Follow the leader to new terrains, terminate eternal backlash of the
grown up world, a world that neither you or I belong to
I notice a small boy, shyly smiling next to mine- they spat and laughed and fucked each other several times
I hold this vision in memoriam, my sweet shattered youth
I erect a temple in my blazing heart to house the treasures such as these
An abundance of starlit memories prove to be comfort in my hours of need
Now I see that I have reached the pale horizon
You are beside me, all around me, but how I wish you were here
I miss you more than you may know
I Love You like no other
In fond remembrance, and eager longing-
Your brother......
¤This is a suicide letter written by ROZZ WILLIAMS ......may the angels guard the flesh of the burning spirit, and guide u to your eternal light¤ Rest in Peace softly breathing shadow......